My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy
March 2015 - When my evening went from doing my maths homework to seeing Kanye West in a matter of two hours.
If you asked me my favourite artist I would answer Kanye West within a second. If you asked me my favourite song I would say Blame Game, then about a hundred songs by Kanye that are close seconds. No matter what type of way I’m feeling he’s got the perfect song for it (not so fun fact - most of the time the song that I post on my story or whatever is a reflection of my mood).
I think one of the things that makes me super upset is that I’ll never get to see Kanye perform 808s & Heartbreak live, or MBDTF (which is my favourite), or Yeezus, or TLOP. I know I’ve seen him live once and he performed a mixture of songs but it’s not the same as watching a whole set from a specific tour. Maybe one day.
This past week I haven’t been myself, not going to go into detail (as always) but it has been terrible. The funny thing is at this moment in time I should be kinda happy tbh, yet I am far from it. I have so many questions I want to ask and things I want to talk about but I can’t. It’s frustrating. Maybe I should just put it to bed, you can’t hate yourself despite giving it your all. I know there is a lot of stuff going on around the world and this may seem trivial but that doesn’t mean I should completely ignore my own situation right?
I have written about 3 or 4 posts on my phone this week but they will never see the light of day - this literally started as a way for my to tell stories about my travels/reminisce and now it’s some depressing sh*t wtf? The goal was to choose photos and write about them, nowadays I just write whatever I want and choose a random photo for it. Ah well guess it really doesn’t matter, it’ll still be interesting to look back at this in a decade or so.
There are so many lyrics I could post that would reflect how I am feeling in right now but I will leave you with a line from my aforementioned favourite song:
“With so much of everything, how do we leave with nothing?"
Note - This isn’t some cry for help - eventually I’ll be alright don’t worry.
Take care people - I’ll see you soon.
